I looked at porn last night before sleeping and I had this intense lesbian dream. I've never had a dream where I see the dirty details of sex. Well, not before last night. I was literally nose deep into it.
Heh. Ironically, it was Tj that I was nose deep in. Ugh. Kinda ... gross now that it has worn off. Anyway... ignoring who it was, the issue was that I couldn't please her. There was this weird three way going on. A~nyways I can't talk much about it cause it was an inappropriate dream.
But whatever, I woke up feeling doughy soft. It was... a good feeling. You know how sometimes you feel a little chubby but in a good way? It's like... when you really like your boobs and notice how soft or mushy they are... yea that kind of feeling was all over. I just felt totally relaxed. It was great.
I seem to do better with less sleep rather more. I dream more and feel refreshed rather than more tired or depressed.
I'm still depressed but... each day is a battle and I'm filling time with other things. I have also stopped trying to figure things out. Of course, it means I don't move forward but it also means I don't walk backwards. Ugh, whatever.
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Fragmented Self who wanders through life like a dreamer and wades through the river of dreams as though it were the only truth left in this world
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