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I'm a mess of stress because I haven't had good sleep and I don't have my books for school yet. I present on two of the books Tuesday all by myself. That gives me ONE day to read them and present, on top of everything else.

I've been spending the night at my grandmother's place this last two nights. I get paid 250 per night, which helps towards my road trip in March. I'm trying to save up for all the vacation I have planned this year. I didn't know the boyfriend had the night off last night, the only night off for like a week, so he was pissed at me. I just can't deal right now with that. I'm taking so much stress off my Dad by helping out. It's totally worth all the s**t the Grandma sitting puts me through. It's mostly just an inconvenience, but she's also very fussy. She wakes up every 2 hours pretty much and needs to go to the bathroom then cries that she is dying. UGH. Feb 14th her spot at the assisted living home opens up so we all just need to get through this s**t till then. She insists that she doesn't need to go to my Dad because she thinks she'll get better after her doctor's appointment this Thursday, but when I'm there she cries that she needs to go away because life is too hard for her right now. She LOOKS for signs that she is dying in every little thing she does. It is a bit exhausting to listen to. I just... pity the fact that she doesn't trust anyone and needs to find something wrong with herself so badly. Due to this narrow mind, she believes she cannot do the simplest of things like pull her covers over her body or make hot water to drink in the mircowave. Sigh. I won't have to deal with it anymore after tonight. My brother takes over and sleeps over tonight, but until he is done with work, I am responsible for catering to her needs.

Some of the trips I am planning are Seattle March 13-14 so I can see MXPX and Five Iron Frenzy in concert together. That will be a road trip with my brother and boyfriend, since I cannot drive and they wanted to come along. Boyfriend and I won a trip to Hawaii through a time share thing so that will be this summer. Also this summer I have a couple trip with my parents either at a cabin or camping. I forget which. I think we may also be going to Calavaras again at the cabin. There are a lot of things to look forward to and I'm making an active effort to keep interacting with my future.

I want to read a few books right now. I just bought Odd Thomas today. I've seen the movie, but people have told me the book is better and worth reading. It's a series y'know so it should keep my attention. I still need to read Cloud Atlas because the boyfriend wanted me to read it. I personally also wanted to read the Sookie Stackhouse series, which my bff Andrea is going to lend me. The television series left a sour taste in my mouth. I think they rushed it too much, and besides the last season was pretty retarded in general. The season with the Maenad was the best! OWO I don't think the whole season should be discouraged because it has a bad ending or slow parts. As a whole it was very entertaining and you do find a character you like best. It is different than if I were to recommend Heroes or Pushing Daisies to you, very different.

In Seabeard I hit a dead end. The producers have not released the next update that opens up more islands to me and my crew members are getting fully maxed out one by one. There is little motivation to play because all I can really do it accumulate stuff and money. I don't particularly wish to ascend to the highest level at this point in time. I'm sure it would help later, but at this time, it isn't worth the time or effort.

Before heading back to the my grandmother's tonight, my goal is to make 2 more mixtapes for my car. One should be okay for the boyfriend to listen to and another is more for myself. I'm putting them all under Ocean themes: Tuna, Whale, Starfish, etc.