Okay, this is going to come off strong, but... when I think of your touch or the times we have had, my sexual needs becomes insatiable. I cannot do it alone, ironically, and it drives me harder into my music. I think of you so much. It's the craving that fills you and once you're in it, there's this peaceful surrender that deafens everything else. Lol. But the cravings are hard. When you can't satisfy them, it makes you want it more and buffs up the memory of it. Yet, the memories I still have of our times are not inaccurate. We stayed up till 4 am messing around one time. I remember that so clearly because we were almost going to go another round, but then we saw the time and were down for the count. I remember trying to watch movies with you and having you fall asleep while I was so nervous being in the bed or lying on the couch with you.
The cravings make it tough to say no when you're around. I just want to stuff every orifice with you. I could smell your scent on my skin today as I was working out and I felt so happy to have that little reminder. I was tempted to forgo a shower, just to keep you with me a little longer. Lol. It's going to make me laugh thinking of this last time we messed around because we both tasted so salty from sweating in volleyball!
Honest to goodness, I can't imagine how things would go when either of us has another person? Like.... how? Lol, it just seems to impossible. Not like, in a bad way but twilight zone sort of way. Haha. I mean, would I make an exception for him? I guess my guy would have to make me secure again and me hella fun in the sack, Haha. I know, inappropriate. Lulz. But it does make me wonder because I wasn't ever jealous in the past of his girlfriend and I'm not typically that sort of girl. I mean Brandon had a girlfriend and jumped his bones anyway. Pffft. Whatever. I guess when I get in a relationship, things change? I dunno... but I'm sure havin fun so far hookin up. Just imagine how vacationing is gonna go! Daaaaang. I hope there are gonna me some ******** hotties. Maybe I'll hit on a chick too! <3
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Fragmented Self who wanders through life like a dreamer and wades through the river of dreams as though it were the only truth left in this world
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