i thought i lost my boyfriend yesterday. man.... i aint get no sleep last night... i didn't eat dinner nor lunch besides the french fries&chicken wings from the chinese resturant at like 11:00am. the most i ate was a small pudding from my job, other than that, i didn't really eat a thing. i cried my eyes out the whole nite crying telling her what happened and that he said: i thought we had something and i wanted someone special. dang confused its true when u love someone and cant live with out them u can't eat or sleep. i only slep 4, 6hours and fell asleep at 6in the morning. talkin to him was like, telling someone u cheated and they cant hear or take what u have to say as if things didn't matter any more. When i was on the phone with him he really didn't have anything 2 say 2 me, so i asked him where do we stand? he said i don't kno. So, i said say something...he paused and said what do u want me 2 say? i said i just wanted things 2 b the same again crying , and he said things could "never b the same again". so u kno what,it was hard but i was almost gonna move on with out him but, i could never in a long run feel the same way about anyone again, or trust. i mean its been 10 months and now this. So in the morning i called my mom told her everything and she said don't let him upset u, if he cant understand anything then 4get him, i told her i needed 2 get out of the house she said if u need 2 get out the house then go, that's when like she said u nkow that pack up everything he gave 2 u and ur sisters and the x-box he let them hold and when i get off from work we'll drop off his things and that's the end of him. so i left,i called him and said so u don't wanna c me any nore gonk , and he said its not like that and said sorry. eek so we had a lil talk and things were alright but a lil shakie. i called my mom back and said he apologized and she said y... then she asked what;s wrong with him doesn't he kno u a lady and not some nasty street girl she sighed and said don't get her involved with me and him again. so i called him back and i told him im going 2 the mall (i just wanted 2 b alone) so he said come 2 the 1 by his house i said y... then i went anyway, after seeing him and talkin,things got better mrgreen , man i just hope things stay that way 3nodding
 ms.kisses8 · Wed Jul 12, 2006 @ 06:31am · 0 Comments |
