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I don't really remember everything. I can't even remember people's name after meeting them. Everytime I struggle to remember, it was like I was making images of the past that was not truly there.
Sometime it's just so hard to keep up with things. Sometime I think I have memory problem, maybe I do. Daddy told me that it was because I'm on computer to much that I have diffuclt time keeping up with the reality. I can't help it. I'm drawn to the computer like a bee and there's nothing I cared about reality. I care about reality, yeah. I care so much that it hurt. I understand people and sometime I feel like that was what I existed for. To help people. I guess that's why I want to be a lawyer because I believe in many things for the deaf right. I also wanted to be something eles. I don't remember. Oh wait, I remember. I want to be a writer. I write but I never finish. It seem that I try to hard to please my reader. I'm a good writer, if I may say so but my problem is that I think about what my readers want but not about me. I write good short stories and now I feel like writing one because my lover went away. His parents grounded him for the whole summer and when I return to my 'real' home on friday, I won't be able to talk with him because my mother's computer was destoried by the thunder.
I'm not suppose to be on, anyway. I'm on daddy's laptop and lately, I been on a lot. I guess daddy love me and my brother and sisters. I use to have four computers bonus the computer my father borrowed. I don't know what he was doing with the bonus computer since he neer tell me anything. I didn't really care. Everyone's on computers and nobody can kick me off. Sadly, the lighting broke all the computers expect daddy's laptop. They even broke three t.v. I didn't hear the thunder. I saw flash of light in the window but I didn't really care. I was happily, playing, roleplaying, with my best friend, Nemo. BAM! The spark of light zapped from the computer and I practicaly(And litterly) jumped onto the bed which was behind me. When it contiuned to try to zap me; I DOVE into the bathroom. (I was in daddy's room on the bonus computer) and WHAM! For a second there, I thought I was in the movie. I had bit of fun jumping as if I had escaped the fire of death(Explson). The only thing that wasn't fun was when I hit the blue rug... the light was off. I could still hear my sister screaming next door.
Hey, that give me an idea. Instead of saying, "Girl next door." or "Boy next door." why don't I write a silly and jealousy story titled, "Sister next door... and litterly." hahaha. I can already see images in my head for the story.
Anyway... what was I talking about? I don't remember. I'm to lazy to scroll up. I'm going to tell you few things about me but this is the important thing you should know should you meet me: You'll never know me. You'll never know me because I role play so much that I jump from one personal to another. I can be:

****Reani****That's me of course.
*Rean: He's my male self. He's my past life and existed first, even before I was born. He was and still is in love with Miyu who remain with Nemo. It's kindof creepy and odd since I'm a girl and Nemo is my best friend and Rean's in love with Miyu. Rean is me. Miyu is with Nemo. Get it? Kindof creepy but aww. They're in love. It's not Rean's fault that he got cursed to be me. Hey, if people die and reborn as a crow or animals; why can't they reborn in different genger(sp?)?
*Question Bunny: She question EVERYTHING. I wonder a lot. Sometime it's scary to think when you're alone. Even when I'm in the crowd, I test. "Why do people kill when they feel quilty?" I really am wondering about that. If you ask me... and I understand some of the reason why people kill but... they shouldn't lose hope. I wonder why they can't face their challenge but I guess it's the challenge for some people.
*Teaser- I tease a lot once I get to know someone. I don't really care about what people think of me. Heck, I want to test on how they react in public. There was one time when I shouted on a MMROSP(sp?) call nexus, "I'm a guy and I marriaged to my husband so I'm gay." that was a long time ago. My ex husband, now my good friend; brother of my lover, freaked. I don't really remember if he did freak. I think he believed it when I kept repeating it and didn't deny it. I think he know better now. *Giggle* Or there was a time when I turned into a guy and my husband freaked.
*Charge- I'm a fighter. I protect everyone I love even those I want someone to love me. Yeah, I finally got someone just for me and he understand me. The point is.. I'm a fighter. I don't give up and I protect everyone I love.
*Joker Bunny- She's basely me. She's funny and try really hard to please people. I'm really loyal(REALLY LOYAL) even those I may seem like I don't take thing serious.
*Pervert Bunny- Yeah, I have a pervert bunny. She came after Rean appeared in my head. I mean, she came RIGHT after Rean poped up and started calling me and Rean gay. I'm almost afraid and she keep sending me image of girls. And no, I'm not a pervert. I tend to tease lovers about such; yeah. *Shrugs* But I'm no pervert. Let just see how you think about me having Pervert Bunny.
*Sad Hatter- She's dull. Sometime I can be her when I'm clueless. Mostly, you'll know that I'm Sad Hatter when I said 'o_o' because it's practicaly staring dumbfold. Well anyway, she have a sister name Mad Hatter who Nemo have.
*Evil Squirrel- 'He' is a punk. All talk, no action. He plot evil thing but he never does it. So he just run to Lousha; crying to make it work.
*Angel Squirrel- Wife of Evil Squirrel. They came after I sat behind the window, staring at squirrels who was aguring over nut. Angel Squirrel and Evil Squirrel practicaly bombed in my head; aguring, having war over nut. Angel Squirrel's the one who gave me a heart. She's my angel who battle agaisnt Evil Squirrel. *Snickers* Actully... she tend to hit Evil Squirrel with a pan and command him to cook her nut every time Evil Squirrel get in trouble.
*Notebook- She's like my second voice. She point out everything when tend to get annoy. I blame myself for reading on Quizilla. I never had a second voice until almost ALL of the story had second voice. Then she just poped up, fixing her glasses and pointed out thing.
*Lousha- Pure evil. My looneys( I'm telling you all of my personal. They are call looneys since I'm crazy but they exist, I swear to you) said that Lousha's me since she's hyper but she is NOT me. She's pure evil when she want to be. Not to metion, annoying but she's evil alright.

I think that's all my looneys and now I am tired. Tobad I don't have any picture to show you. On my old comoputer, I had TON of pictures. I guess that's why a virus got on my computer. I didn't know saving pictures is a downloading. Wish daddy explained it to me better but no. He just had to tell me to now download and demand me to understand. I guess I'm stubborn. I'm sorry daddy, but it seem so pointless but now I understand. Sometime even when thing seem pointless, you gotta listen to your parents...
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Right.. you'll be reading my hell and heaven.