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I wrote this to my darling long ago. I was sad. Now that I think back, I couldn't see anything but of my friends, the jounal would tell you. We were friends at first but he seriously was there for me without my knowing. I think that all of 'that' happened because I was going to get a lover and I did got my love...

I know that my grammers was wrong but I don't want to edit them. I wrote all this long time ago and so it's sacred to me.
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*Sit on edge of cliff in rain staring out into the stormy gray cloud*
*Whisper*

I have been there for all my friends and my families. I had been there to heal their wounded heart as my heart sank slowly withen the shadow. No one saw that I needed someone to be there for me and no one saw that I needed someone to hold me. My heart finnally sank withen the shadow fully as my friends and families turned agaisnt me. Half of my soul is gone. Some say I role play. Some say I changed.
Well. Listen to them not. Listen to my soul crying out for someone to lead me as I had lead them. I do not know who to trust now. I do not know if people take me serrious. I do not know if they're simiply my friends because I ambuse them.
Yes... I would fall for anything. Since you guy said that and had done repeatly... It is hard to be me. Trying to keep my soul happy as I heal people's wounded heart. But damn. I need someone to help me. To be there for me. To hold me and tell me everything's alright.
Now that I thought of my past... I thought I looked stupid running around screaming my friends's name, not only friends but stranger.. Maybe its because Im lonely and wanted someone to hear my crying soul. I play to hide my soul but my soul slowly sank. Soon. Full of me would change. I slowly feel nothing. I wouldnt feel anything if someone say painful thing to me. I would simiply turned my back to them or simpily yell at them as I had you guy... My pride is hurt. As it is hurting now. I dont belong anywhere. Nor on Earth. Let alone Nexus. I tried to fit in but Im outstanding. I tried to be calm but Im squealing.
I miss my friends. I miss my families. I miss the old me. I miss my past. I miss my happy. I miss my happy past. I especially miss our past. Everyone's past. Ye, Nice, AuroN, Naki, Winterskiss, DramaQueen, Evilman, Wolfprincess, Wolfyprinces... everyone. We use to be there for eachother. Everyone. Until its all gone. It repeatly destory. Destory the same way yet different.
Oh Cevo. I feel pathic. My jounal is bit like this but Im not gonna last any longer serriously. Soon I would feel nothing as I am slowly now. Irl or nexus. you say Iv changed. Some say Iv changed. I say I changed too. I use to feel happy. But I feel nothing...


~Lonely Soul~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Reani
~Broken Heart~
~Soon to be forever gone~
~All fours, the same but different~
~Reani, AngelGurl, Lousha, Ebony~
~And is reborn.... but half soul and pain~

Mah real name... I am four but each different and different past....