I desidet to put poems in her
....so....
this is how I expres miself....
in another way then drawing....
you might not understand...
but I do this for me...
and if you like it that is create!
but if you missunderstand it,
that will hurt,
so don't draw conclusions,
and just truy to licen,
lice to me,
and my fealing....
ok..
and understand that,
I miself try to understand
what I write here
thank you
and have fun reading this grap!! lol blaugh
I'M CRAZY AND LAZY AND FUN
The world is my game that I can only chare
With my bad spelling you can see
THAT ENGLISH IS BUT MY 3rd. to speack
My love fo anime cant be said in words
but my heart is for dose that belong to the worlds
With a poem I descrive
My crazines in descuies
And you not nedd to read with eyes
but with fellings you can see
that I'm your's truly
Emma the duive
roses that have powers over me
the way that it makes me feel
althoug I am alone
I cry no more
for I know
that am free
and as I grow
I fight even more
for life is my game
and I can´t lose at it again
cut me I bleed
hit me I scream
am a popet no more
....now can you help me on?
two in my heart
two in my soul
can it be?
one for you
one for me?
a soul that is in half
or a body with two souls
double personality
I have them both in me
My love is shared
but they both love them
yet can they both love her?
or me?
can one have two?
can one be in pain, for love?
can we ever be one?
or are we destine to die?
she is in my body?
or am I in hers?
can anione save me?
help me?
no....this is my fate
to fight as one
the two of us must
until we die...
but why?
no one knows
but now I now
she is in me,
and I am in her
I am weirder then I though
sorry for this
having bought
good and evil
or is it that we both have both??
one is evil and good
the other is good and evil
why is this?
can I be free?
can she be at peace?
hope I find out
when I get to be free
can I walk a pat that no ne can walk?
can you see my light?
can you feel my raft?
can you see her?
no...I though so
no I am not crasy
but scared
to know she is with me
but happy
because she is helping me
find a way
to what I must do
I don't know
but it won't be easy
I know that
even fate is not sure
I know, my past now
but I don't now hers
I will find out
and then I know that we bouth will find our way
To see the human for what they truely are
how horible it is to see them as that
no person told me before
how time can kill the soul
one moment in memory
he was a person, a friend
at present he is a friend with pain
not him but in me
I have so much pain
he made me cry
why would I cry for someone that no longer exist?
am the only one that holds him near
but he is gone
but I am still here
he won't come back
I finaly know that
he simple dosen't care
he might look the same
but he is not him
the friend I knew is dead
I wish he wasen't
I wish he was still here
but that is all I have
A wish that can't be true
I am sorry to see your arrogance
am sorry to see you be this way
I wish now more then ever
that you rember yourself
but you only see the past as bad
and the present as good
to be popular you want to be
but that means you can't be near me
so you left
and now you bearly say hello
if am not the same that is ok
but atlesst I keep my friends
I wish you werent arrogant
I wish you could be back
back to what you were
but all I have is that wish
that you could never fullfil.
loking back
am sure the world couden't handle me
I walk as if my life was not here
I read my life
and I laugh as if it wasent my
I keep walking
and see the pain
but I just say "to bad"
and walk away
is it weird?
to look back and know this is not were your supose to be?
I still walk
but this time I am not alone
the pain I see now is hurthing more
as if my body can't take it
so I sleep, to repel it
but its catching up
my past is walking behind me
every missgiving
every misplace
every time I walk away
it will fallowe me in my trail.
is it weird to look back and see you fears right behind you?
I walk slower now
is it because of the pain?
my grades go down
but who realy cares?
even tough I feel it now
the pain acute inside me
I still laugh
and say "to bad, it hurts, who cares about me."
but now in days the past has catch up
and payment is due for the past acts
is it weird that now you don't need to look back to see what is ahead?
I stop
I guess your wishing me to tell you
"what now?"
but I can't say
to everione their fate
just make sure you don't run away
if you were vengful you now your end
if you were nice you shouden't had walk away
no it is not weird to look back and wonder...
...is it just me? or is that my shadow?
*if you made sence of this poem, or don't understand it, yet somehow tough of things as it pass....don't look behind cause you are being fallowe by your past*
 kagome_eb · Sat Aug 05, 2006 @ 02:56am · 2 Comments |
