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Current mood: Angry with myself
I'm feeling very stupid today. I meet Link and I couldn't get him out of my head. His green clothes, soft voice, blonde hair, blue eyes. It was so bad that when I was out with Hatori (my boyfriend) who is utterly gorgeous, and cares immesly about me, I didn't even register what he was saying. He noticed unfortunetly, and now I feel completely stupid.
"Are you listening?" he asked me as I walked beside him along the path surrounding the Park.
"I'm sorry Hatori, I...uh...was thinking about yesterday." I told him. Which was rather stupid, because I had already told him about Link. He turned to me all angry for a moment, but I guess, when i flinched, I'm not sure, but when I flinched, he calmed.
"Did you get hurt? Yesterday I mean."
"No." Link had prevented that, although, by then I was sure he would've done so for anybody.
"Good. I owe, Link, a thank you then." He gave me a smile.
But, even though, it seemed okay then, I felt like such a jerk. Later on today too, I saw Link walking around. I almost spoke to him, but...wouldn't that be wrong? For me to start talking to this guy that I like TOTALLY adore, even though I'm dating Hatori...?
The Ball is coming up. And, according to my cousin, she saw Link with an invite. Hatori and I are going as a couple, but, I know Kana's going to be there. She doesn't remember Hatori, but he remembers her. Well. They were in love once. They almost got married. I don't know the whole story, but I do know that it is a very sad one.
Hatori doesn't know she's going, I'm not going to tell him either. I know if I do, he'll decide not to go. I don't want that. He needs to go out and have fun. Not stay home.
*sigh* I hate myself for getting so involved in a mess like this. I swear, the ball is going to be the end of the relationship between Hatori and I. Quite frankly, I fear it. I care for Hatori, deeply, but... who is Link?