EVIL GONE HORRIBLY WRONG.
-4th Grade-
We were best friends. Me and Kirsten. We did everything together, like two peas in a pod, you know? We were growing up...together.
But that changed.
-5th Grade-
We were all "new", but she really was new. Never gave much though though....it was still me and Kirsten; best friends. But a small comment overheard triggered something. The new girl. Her name was Olivia. I got to talk to her, and I liked her. She would be a really great friend, I thought. She likes everything I like...and she's fun!
I really spent a lot of time with Olivia, and it was great! We became unseperatable, even when the worst of situations came. But I was forgetting something...someone.
-6th Grade-
School time again! I went to greet her. We talked about summer and all kinds of other things. I was really glad to see her again. But I can't even remember if I greeted her...
Everything was great! Me and Olivia became even MORE of best friends!
But I couldn't control myself...all the time I was having fun with Olivia...I was leaving Kirsten alone...ignoring her.
And I was too blind to see that...
-7th grade-
Wow...3 years. 7th grade was when our friendship was the strongest...because I came back for her. I was able to learn to be best friends with more than one person...it wasn't just me and Olivia...it was Me, Olivia, AND Kirsten...all for one, and one for all. The best year of my life...also the year a started going out with Jake...the best guy a girl could have.
-8th Grade-
Junior High...This time, all three of us were new. We stuck together....TOGETHER....
it's hard to believe i messed it up, but i did.
Teyheal was a girl who had a lot in common with me too...but not quite the same thing as Olivia or Kirsten...but I had done it again.
I forgot about them...I couldn't....and still can't...seem to share best friendship with three people.
But I don't have to worry about that...because now we're ex-best friends...
So now it's just me and Teyheal.
No Kirsten....no Olivia.
But...I didn't want it that way.
I wanted me, Olivia, Kirsten, AND Teyheal...all for one, one for four. But I just can't. I'm trying...but it's not gonna work that way.
I want time to go back...I never wanted to ever meet olivia....because i forgot about kirsten.
I never wanted to meet kirsten...because i left her out all alone.
I never wanted to meet Jake...because that's more attention away from my friends.
I never wanted to meet Teyheal...because what I got for one thing...I lost for two better things.
I wish I never met life...because I'm no good at it.
Maybe there will be a time when I can finally make things right, and keep it right.
Maybe it'll be next year, maybe next month, maybe in another lifetime.
But until then, I'm stuck...I've trapped myself, nobody else helped screw things into the ground...just me.
And now I have to help myself out of what i've caused.
and I can't just try...I have to ACT.
Heh...I can't even try to ACT...I have to really ACT.
I don't know how...but I'll find a way...even if nobody believes me...I will...for the sake of everyone I've ever chewed up and spit out. To keep 4 years from falling into nothing....I will.
I WILL.
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Try!
*Sighs* I remember when Mary met Elizibeth...I was so jealous >.< This was in 7th grade...They talked about normal girl stuff...did I fit in?
Hell no XD
I'm the kind of girl who likes to talk about weird things, and videogames....Mary, unfortunately, isn't one of those people.
But she's still my friend ^^
Then in 8th grade, she met Anthony, who is a hardcore Goth.
I mean seriously! He came in, wearing a trenchcoat, and wears thick boots.
Mary was a depressed girl...her mother was divorced when she was 5...She lives with her father and little sister (Who she claims that she's the spawn of the devil o_O). She liked Anthoney, and even had a crush on him!
They talked...I was ignored. I felt bad. I was ignored, and I hated it. So I just sat quietly, eating my lunch. Sometimes, though, we talked, but she would turn back to Anthoney.
But then, after some time, they didn't talk as much anymore. I don't know why, though.
Now I have a group of friends: Mary, Disha, Alex, and sometimes Elizibeth.
Oh, and of course, Shadow X3 But only me and Alex can see him ninja
So...good luck, sis! heart