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******** everyone.... I know that's a little harsh, but everyone just leaves me now. As soon as I get near them or start talking, they leave! Everyone I'm close to just walks away. They leave me to sit on my bed whilst I cut and bleed for hours, listening to It Dies Today, As I Lay Dying, or something. I'm crying, bleeding, coughing, beating my head into the wall, and no one wants anything to do with me. I know why to.... I'm happy, then sad, then in love, then bitterly angry, and they just leave me here to rot! That just makes me worse.... I stop talking, eating, sleeping, reading, writing.... I just.... sit there.... staring of into space, wanting to die. Why don't they love me? And why can't I forget the love I'm holding on to. I know it will never exist again....