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Do you wish to see the Darkness of my Heart?
Sometimes I cant even stand my own journal writings, are you sure you can? Are you really sure? Just checking before you hit that button down there...
Its back again...
My depression I mean...its back...and I'm isolated from my friends...

Why does it keep coming back after I think I banished it away?
Why am I cursed to carry this stupid thing they call a disease

and every time I ask myself that, the answer is always the same...
its because I deserve it...I'm a horrible person and I treat everyone around me so horribly...I only bring sadness and dispair to anyone that I come in contact with

I'm nothing but a burden to anyone...my depression gets in the way of everything...Its amazing why people dont hate me...

How could anyone ever love something like me...something that can never truely be happy...something that will only bring sadness and is usless like me...

I'll never be good at anything...I'll never be loved...I'll never be happy without a depression cycle...People will always throw me aside after using me till I break...whats the point in going on anymore?






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BiawKasai
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commentCommented on: Mon Apr 09, 2007 @ 07:35am
*hugs* You've got PLENTY of people who love you. Myself included.

The point in living (at least for me) is to see others happy. People love you for who you are, depressed or otherwise. So, by logic, you aren't a bad person. (And don't you deny it or I'll slap you).

Everyone is a burden to everyone else. We burden our frieds with out troubles, our selfish desires, and our unconscious whims. It's a perpetual exchange that is utterly equivalent between friends. Try your best not to and you'll end up doing so anyway. But that's why true friends are friends, to care for each other like family or better.

We are here for you. We are here to pull you out of the dark void you have fallen into each and everytime. Without fail. Whether you want to be brought out or not.


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