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Today, I slitted my wrist and bled your name
and bled, and bled, and bled, scattered it along the way
Trying to get out from this hell, only pulling by a thread of hope
but I only wasted my time in the end, cause I slipped back to the bottom
when that image of your face came back to my brain... again
Again, and again, over and over again
It's always you, again!
I can't erase you from my head!!
I can't embrace you, you're not there
you wouldn't let me...
Cause again, God misplaced the one I am for real
the one you'll never see, or sense, or feel
I lost myself in you, and my soul screams in a peal
Your photo albums, they're much bigger than mine
your lists of friends, of lovers, of dreams
they're a lot bigger than the ones I have
I can't pretend any longer
see, my only dream is to be with you
but you're the touch I cannot feel...
so I'm giving up on this; my love for you
You have better friends to hang up with; better things to hold on to
and all I got is this slitted wrist
(that, again, it bleeds for you)
And it's nothing compared to all you could lose
I understand why you're avoiding me, I really do
I am nothing but an earthworm, a mine of malice
An empty heart-broke igniting for the rope from which I'm hanging
There's nothing I'd want more right now,
more than getting out from this ******** house,
more than finding a way out from this life,
than staying with you tonight...
cause I need you, more than you could ever imagine
This morbid love, it's been forbidden since we first met
You don't feel the same, even if I thought we were alike
But 'equal souls' was never a true concept, nothing but a lie:
You won't give a damn for me, and for you girl..., for you I'd give my life
I wished I could spit it all out, the way you make me feel
three simple words of emotion I've kept locked down here (you'll never hear 'em)
my habit of decomposing is to keep things to myself
but still you're the only reason why I still breathe
the only reason why I cry, and the reason why I bleed
I carved your name into my skin
Literally, carved it with my own nails
and that capital "J" at the beginning of your name
It breaks my balance, reminds me of how much I care, and how much I shouldn't
And it kills me; you kill me with your absence
(To hell with this oblivion. Stop the murder, stop your glances!)
you could kill me with a word, shatter my body with a whisper
shatter my heart with a touch, and set fire on the splinters
There's nothing worst than failing without trying
I was skeptical, forgot the truth that I denied
It'd be stupid to tell you how I feel for you
But I'd be a coward if I didn't
I think I'll die a coward
And the pressure to make this get to you, it stabs
but forget about Hope, forget about our stars
I'll forget about it all and just focus on my scars
Cause you were right when you quoted me the truth
I will never have the person I love...
because that person is you...
 Bellick · Wed Jun 20, 2007 @ 08:42pm · 1 Comments |
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