Ever felt you were right next to something... you could touch it Grasp it in your hands hold it close to you and than the next thing you know is its falling away. It seems to have hit a black hole and just poof out of reach... I know this feeling, and I know it all to well... I was tortured as a child... I had to be made to not cry every time it rained even a little outside... I was locked in Hallways, Thrown into a Hail storm and than Left outside when the Tornado's took out Fort Worth just to be hospitalized by the Wind, This was all the doing of my parents... Now I don't cry when it rains even tho I want to... There are more things I would like to get off my chest but here isn't the time or place here I want to talk about the rain.
I want to grow up I"m 22 years old and still can't be left home alone for fear of things that go bump in the night, the rain... the Thunder... The lightning... Sadly of all these things the Thunder scares me the most... there is Pain if ever Boom, Ever sound sends a chill through my side and A Pain in my heart. I don't know how to control this, or how my Family gave it the control over me they did... I wish I knew... I wish I could make all just disappear... I for once wish I could control my thoughts... My Paranoia.. This is where it begins... the Rain... Beating on my roof, Bringing me to tears... The Rain is where it Began... and now I have decide... the Rain is where I will bring it to an end.
Welcome one and all, the show is about to start... take your seats and hold your breath, I promise this is one show you will never forget
 NyxianaSpades · Sun Nov 30, 2008 @ 06:41am · 0 Comments |
