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Indeed. While a few of my friends keep adding a bit weight onto my life, things are getting worse and worse, bit by bit. I understand that people have problems of their own, but just like anyone else, I do as well.

My grandpa had been having memory problems for about two months now, it's bad to the point where he basically forgets every five minutes. Example: My grandpa asks me when my mom is coming home, and I tell him one o'clock, the next few mintues he asks again and this cycle will usually repeat for a hour or so. Today, was more depressing.. Our cats had an appointment to get spayed, one of the cats lives with us and the other lives with my grandparents. When my grandpa got to our house, he just thought that the reason for him coming over was to take me to school, he didn't remember about the appointment and he even forgot about the fact that he had the cat with him in the truck, he completely forgot.We think that soon he's gonna have Alzheimer's.. Basically, he might not gonna be able to remember me and my family... If that ever happens.. I don't know how I can deal with it...
He's like a father to me, and throughout my childhood, he was the one who basically raised me.. If I was a boy, I guess you would say, "Like father, like son." He's like a twin, we're the only ones in our family who LOVES spicy food (except our heart conditions are opposite, but love beats hate). We have the same mental illness... and yes, I'm aware that it's not genetics, but I picked it up from him when I was little... at least that's what I think. I even picked up this one habit where he would pull his nose, or something like, to relieve a itch. We have a father and son bond, he's really fun to be around and he makes me laugh and I make him laugh.
It makes me want to breakout into tears at the thought of him forgetting all about me, 'cause it's just really sad.. [[cried for fifteen minutes]] Yes, I was just crying... Got a prob?

Now, not only for my grandpa's sake, but for myself.. I have to bring up my grades, get a job, take drivers ed, be able to drive, and etc. In this house, things are getting a bit tense and a bit complicated.. so yeah...

I'm just gonna go off now, just sit here and think, or whatever.