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So, I finished watching Twilight and I gotta say, I liked the storyline, but the acting sucked. Bella = emotionless and Edward = NOT hot... But that isn't what I'm griping about

This might touch a few people, so if you are one of these guys/girls I'm mentioning, then get your handkerchiefs ready...

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I'm realizing that after I finish High School, I'll never see some of the best friends I've ever had again... I might see them occasionally, but these guys have really been something... These guys have shaped who I am and made me appreciate myself. I don't want to leave them, and if I do, I should just relive High School... My parents always told me, "You will NEVER see you high school friends again after senior year. Don't get too close." Thing is, I'm closer to these guys than a flea is to a dog. Sure, I annoy the s**t out of them, but I want to stay with them.

Matter of fact, I'm breaking out in the biggest sob I've had since my first rejection... And every guy knows that rejection bites. Really, if you're one of my friends, I'm begging you with my heart, soul, guitar, arms, legs, ears, brain, balls, and but tocks to please not leave me... You guys might not think much of yourselves or me, but you guys all mean the world to me, every one of you... Now, a few words to everyone. If I'm found dead, I want you all to remember these....

Yoder, we've never really been close friends but you are one of the 5 people that have made my high school years live-able and stopped me from going emo. And considering it's me, the stoner, that's an achievement. Don't under any circumstances think I don't appreciate the things you've done for me this year. Which might be jack s**t or less, but I don't give 1/2 of a flying ********. You're a great friend and I love you like a brother, man.

Kelsey, I resent your emoness and your ability to tick me off. But, you know what? ******** it. You AREN'T nothing, don't ever think that again. John still loves you, but when it all comes down to it, you probably aren't number 1 to him. I'm not in a relationship yet and, as a girl friend (You know what I mean!), you are number 1 to me. Nobody cares about you? BULL ******** s**t!! I DO!!

Richie, you're the funniest and smartest guy I've known. I couldn't forget about you, even if I tried. I'm probably an annoying s**t to you, but you're a hell of a friend. All those times I SERIOUSLY ******** up in Schwarz's class, I had you to tell me my dad wasn't going to annihilate me with a wooden spoon and a pool noodle. Not only that, you've helped me out big time in my relationship life. You're easily one of the 5 that keep me from being emo...

Peanut Butter, I haven't known you nearly as long as Noah, Kelsey, Sam, or Scriven, but you've always been a lovely person all the same. Me without you would be like cake without frosting... I'm absolutely ******** serious. You can brighten up my day just by talking to me and I appreciate everything you've ever said to me.

Ross, you are a hilarious Asian mother ********! You realize that? All I can bring myself to do is thank you for trying to help me overcome my emoness. You're like the ********' Chief Redden of my life. Without you, I would've failed Mr. Van Inwagen's class from severe boredom and I wouldn't've had a reason to stay in Sidhu's class. This year, I actually have a good reason besides passing to stay in Schwarz's class. And I'm so sorry for complaining to you about how my life sucks.

Scriven, you beanerlicious emo son of a beverage! I wouldn't forget you for all of Joe Perry's guitars. Without you, I would have no soul AT ALL! Matter of fact, you're the reason I no longer oppose emos. I didn't like emos because they were always depressed. You've shown me that bad reasoning is present in every one of us, and emos are no different. Plus, you've helped me with every relationship-to-be I've ever had. I'd thank you with my guitar, but your folks would kick me out of their house because I could. You're also one of the 5.

Beka, regardless of what my parents say, you're also one of the 5. You're great to talk to, you're always kicking some energy at me, and you really are a great friend. If anybody, I would miss you one of the most after graduation. Period. Have fun in Hawaii or I'll find you!

Vivi, thanks for being a friend. I can't say much else but I've grown to be grateful to know you over the past month. I don't know where to start with how much I want to thank you for not treating me like dirt like so many others have. And, regardless of what you said, I just have to stop there... I don't know what to say... I'm going to miss you too sounds like a good place to start...

And, of course, Topher, you've been my best friend ever. I don't know if I told you about Noah, my friend from Idaho. Me and her lived up there from age 1-3 then we moved here to California. We've been in the same schools since. I'm sorry I've lied to you all this time about never having friends, and I'd saw my own hands and feet off and give you the 100$ i got to my name so you can get whatever drum parts you need. Me and her have been friends for 14 years and yet, in the course of only a year, you've been a greater friend than anyone else. The best people in the world, like you, make a difference in people like me. I'm a stoner, rocker, and a total dork. And I couldn't care less. Being your brother (not being in Mike's shoes I mean by that) is something I wish God could have done for me. A guy like you has the ability to make the lives of everyone on this sad sorry planet worthwhile and when I graduate, I'm gonna miss you more than anyone, dude...



No matter what I say about you guys, always remember how much you mean to me. You guys are my world, my sorrow, my reason to be, and you always will be! crying crying crying