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I was thinking to myself about somebody (If you're reading, this, you know who you are!) and I realized why I can never find true love. It brought me to the Wedding Singer when Robbie said:

"Some of us will never ever find true love. Because... We have nothing to offer the opposite sex. For instance, me. And that fat guy over there. And that lady with the sideburns. And basically all the mutants over at table 9."

Yes, I watch Adam Sandler movies enouh to the point where I can almost recite the whole movie. Silence, I have no other good movies...

Anyway, we have nothing to offer to the opposite sex. My best friend, for instance, has a girlfriend. He is funny, he has a life, and he's actually got a semi-attractive appearance. (You get why we're friends, dude?) My emo friend is romantic, he apparently actually gives a damn about the girl he's with rather than me, who is just so desperate I don't care who I go out with.

And jocks get dates a lot right? Stereotypical but usally true. They have muscles, they're in sports, and plus it's like tradition for trendy girls to go out with jocks and/or wannabe gangsters. And your folks and friends will always say "There's someone out there." That's not always true, though. Someone out there you can be with? Yes. Someone you can offer your personality to and live long and happy? Usually. Some guys have NOTHING to offer.

I hate to be this way, but I am one of those people... I like to not think of myself as one of the nerdy types that has nothing to offer. I have SOME things to offer, but will any girl want any of my traits? Here's a list of positive things about me:

1) I play guitar, and I've gotten so good over the year that I've been playing
2) I'm not original, but I can be funny
3) I have a slim figure, but no muscle
4) I'm sorta classy when it comes to being with a girl I like. Like one of those guys that [stereotypically] always says, "Don't hit a girl." Like they don't want to disrespect women at all. Yeah, I can SORTA be like that SOMETIMES...

Now, the negatives...

1) I annoy the livid piss out of everyone
2) My hair is greasy and unattractive
3) I like to be in the circles our friends are in. But I can't be in them because I can't join their conversations
4) I'm still a virgin
5) I've never kissed a girl
and 6) I've basically been single my whole life

See? Who would want to go out with me? I'm not emo, but I feel very unloved. I don't cut myself, I don't gripe about my life, and I don't wear all black. I feel unhappy because it's high school and it'd be nice to have someone I can be loved by and give love to. (Not in the 70's way, which some people call "Making love." wink

Anyway, I see myself talking to girls all the time. My social skills have been in the shiter since first grade. And, since 6th grade, they've been seriously developing. I've had a ******** up life, so chances are, I haven't grown up or experienced things other people I know have.

Summarize it up:
1) I see why I am unloved now
2) I'm not emo