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I've hurt a lot of people in a short period of time. I don't think it could have ever been avoided. By nature I am whimsical and eventually I would have hurt them. I'm... just not like other people.

I know I like to say I am so different than other people but it's only half true. It's almost like I am a kaleidoscope. Everytime you tilt me, I change but I am still the same. Confused yet? It's almost like there are so many possibilities still for who I could be that I just like to test them all out and my character changes because of that. Now, this is all theoretical as far as I can see and yet it makes sense to me.

Like a lot of people, I didn't have the perfect childhood but it was "normal" in that I had two parents who loved each other and my brother and I but they sucked at showing it. We had enough money and lived in a nice house and decent neighborhood. Our parents were overprotective and I had friends. Then there was the perfect side of me: popular and perfect in school (almost literally, I was teacher's pet unofically two years in a row and straight A student for 5 years of my life). I was great in sports of all kinds except Tennis, lol. Then there was the rebellious side of me that few really saw because there was no real reason for it to show back then. I would skip out of music practice, act rudely to private instructors, and ignore my parents. Then there came a reason: changing schools.

All the different but typical sides of me had to battle with time for thier big chance to reign supreme. I wonder if they are or ever will merge together for a better me. It's hard to say.

I'm a bit upset, the staff of angels went up in price.. a lot. It went up at least another 100k from what I was almost at. Now I am about 150k away... again. Just as I hot 300k too >.> Bastards. I could sell something to get me there but... with the tax on the marketplace it would take a bit before I could get the 20k that would be taken off from the tax and I bet the staff would raise in price again. I should have guessed it would go up though so I suppose it is my fault. What with the Angelic and Demonic set monthly collectibles, almost all the other angelic/demonic items go up in price. -sigh- Damn you Gaia.