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There hasn't been a lot going on with me but there has...

First and foremost, I want to explain something that I believe very firmly. I relate best to Rin out of all the Vocaloids. You can deny it all you want, but we are the most similar. First I felt it with the "Princess of Evil" and now "Pretending That Nothing Else Happened" has confirmed it for the umpteenth time in my mind. Rin is the one that fits best because she is one of the two that feel regret the strongest. Her biggest mountain to climb is her regret or some kind of inside force. She also has Len as her sibling, who I compare to someone else. She has the same attitude and stupid stuborness and temper as I do. I wish I was more like Luka. She's amazing. She is all about overcoming any obstacle to bring people together. I woud love to be like that.

In other news, I have been crying a lot lately. I have had the same nightmare three nights in a row, all different dreams but of the same situations so essentially they are the same dream. Talking to Andrea last night made me feel a lot better. I am just overall a lot more scared and doubtful. I am so much more hopeful though too ^^ It's just ^^" that the doubts all haunt me so much that I am scared to do things... things I would normally do.

I may get into the Anthropology course, he says he still has open spots. Today I got artwork of me from the nice girl from last time. I saw her drawing so the stalker that I am, I sent her a note. We passed notes the entire class >^ It was fun. Haha. Other than that, MWF I only have two classes. I have all male teachers, which is kinda weird... and they all watch me when I talk or bring up a point. I participate pretty well in class. I only doodle a bunch in my ethnic studies class, and that's because it's like a history class >X Bah humbug.

The pockets of free time are really nice for me. No one is ever in the apartment during these times. The only downside is that I get everything done when no one is here so when they get back, all tired and irritated, I am playing games or something. I think it gets annoying for them ^^ Plus, I make delicious foods >} Hehe, yes I do! I had mashed potatoes with green beans today ^^ That was my Din Din <3

It's a speical person's birthday soon and I'm really looking forward to it. I remember her last birthday, it was really funni. Lawlz. <3 I am going back home for the weekend beforehand. But then that week I come back I have intramurals start and I have my ... dun dun dun DUUUUN.. JPET test o.o EEEKS! Haha... it's supposed to be hard to pass? I dunno. If you can write they say it's easy so I guess I'll be fine?

My nails are getting really long but my hair hasn't grown much. I am still trying to grow it out. I want to have hair to my butt ^^ Yup yup. Overall, I go through big high's a lows. ^^ Through the painful tears, there is hope and a smile. Memories are the main cause of all this, I have pent away the one thing I need to talk about and I feel like I overkill it when I do talk about it or that people don't understand just how significant the memories are to me. Man, I would hate to see me after someone dies... since I feel this shitty after just losing a friend... BTW. my grandpa is getting worse. He is now getting radiation treatment for his bone cancer but it's spread and my grandparents keep reminding me that he doesn't have the much time left... great....