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I had a nightmare last night about Emily. I've patched a few things up and it looks like I'm getting a fresh start, but I had a nightmare last night. It felt really real. But, you know... All my nightmares do...

I was talking to her, but I forget what about, then I hugged her and I felt like crap. I felt embarrassed, taken advantage of, hated, and just terrible in general. I've had people tell me she's a b***h. I don't know....

Sorta like with Tyler, it isn't my place to judge someone by what others say. But see, Tyler isn't really cool to hang with at all, and I gave him a fair chance. But I still don't know Emily. And although Tyler was just flat out annoying, that's something you can infer without knowing someone. Beth, Richie, and (in a way) Topher know Emily a little bit and say she's a b***h

But she seems nice and I can't be judgmental. I hate it when others are that way to me, so I really don't I have a right to be like that to others. And, if she is a b***h and that nightmare comes true, I was warned...

And she's not the only girl I've been thinking bout lately... There's also Beth, Hannah, and Lexie. Beth has already acknowledged that she likes me as a friend. And I'd like to keep it that way. Hannah is super cool but she's taken. I barely know Lexie; I just think she's cute

And it really is a good thing none of them read my journals....

But most of all, Emily