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With the Sun comes Rain
It's been raining a lot here. It's a strange feeling to know that you are both scared and happy with the rain. The memories of being in the rain haunt the days of rain and sometimes overpower the normal feelings to twist them and engulf them in fear.
Of course, after the rain comes the sun... ******** NFEInfrkebiwfneifnefjkwv nvflejnkgn nfdvlsenktginergnae adadjnvjksenrg OMFG I hate the Sun. DX Basically I'm such pissed from yesterday. I am so overwhelmingly ticked off that I feel like there is a cloud over me today. But, this will all be gone by the end of excercising it off X3 Thanks GOD <3
Everything that could go wrong was going wrong yesterday. Sure, some things were good but most were not. I got to draw more and bought the half of the book so I could borrow it to correct me test. But then my friend broke up with her Bf, I went with her to watch her play video games and I think I made her feel strange cause I wouldn't play or talk to anyone else. Then I realized I have my Anthropology midterm next week, THE DAY OF YAOI con.... and I already had started planning to cosplay. MOTHER ********! DX I don't know what I am going to do. I may go. I may not. ******** ******** ********. The friend who broke up with her Bf was going to go with me but, now I doesn't look like it. DX So I would be alone with all these Man X Man Fangirls DX and there would be tons of AkuRoku.... DX Ugh. BUT If I cosplay as who I want to, X3 I get to participate in some couplings X3 Omg and I wanna see cosplayers. I wanna see sexy men cosplay since there are like none at normal conventions. DX And if there are, they usually don't stay long or aren't dressed up. Ugh! Problem is that if I cosplay, I will forever have a MALE cosplay <.> Ugh. I wanna be a GIRL! <.> UGHGHGHGHGHGHGH.
Tomorrow I have to go to another counseling session DX MOTHER ********... I really don't want to go. We havee corrections for our tests due that day. I think I may stay up all night tonight and just sleep tomorrow. That's another thing that sucked about yesterday, I couldn't get to sleep! Then when I did, I had a weird a** dream DX DAMMIT
As you can tell, I'm off my rocker with anger here. I don't show it of course physically, nope. I keep it bottled in. Yup. FInveiuasblfshekilvb ajenviwnrfklanw and inside, I am screaming and breaking things and pounding my fists against me head. Ugh....
I hate October.
Other than yesterday, I've been kept pretty much under the radar. Drawing has kept me pretty stable. I have drawn quite a lot. I uploaded some stuff to Facebook. Since my scanner is broken, I wouldn't dare put them on Deviantart. I will wait till I get the scanner, then maybe I'll lose the drawings by then >3 Heh. Deviantart is intimidating and I don't like to use it other than to watch my subscriptions. XD They are so prettyfulllz. Nargleplex.
I need to finish the animes I already started. I am almost done with Cowboy Bebop. We were wrong, they do explain their pasts. They explain Valentine and Spike closer to episode 20, after quite a bit of fillers. I only need about 6 episodes and I'll be done with that, then I just need to finish off Melanchily of Haruhi. I want to check for KHR updates but I know if I do, I'll be hooked indefinately. DX I think I already am. I <3 Squalo too much. Squalo X Yamamoto = Ultimate hotness. OMg seriously like spasm gasm worthy. I love Yamamoto too but Squalo is better in a way. I hate Gokudera, I wanna KIIIIILLLLLLLLZ HIM so badly DX D< KILLLZ! nfneinfwfwdcda
Hmm, so I am supposed to get together with Christy again for Halloween, which should all work out. We get together Saturday night for dinner and then she spends the night = fun times once more. I should be able to go to Yaoi con during the day if everything still works out and I want to go still. Transportation is a bit shaky and I'm unsure about whether or not I can get back safely by certain times. <.> I dunno but I'll hafta call to check everything once I get the clothes and such together. I think even if I don't cosplay I might go. <.> Maybe not. Maybe. I really don't know. I only need to get the coat and whip. I already ordered the wig. I will prolly steal the shoes and pants from my brother. I have shirts that would work. I guess I would need athletic tape too to tape my booooooobs >3 Cause I have em. Hahah!
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