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I told Maci last night I felt like putting up a journal but didn't know what to write. Feels like low traffic in my life lately, I guess is another way of putting it. I guess I'll just toss up an update of my life and my inner feelings that everybody loves to hear me b***h about.

I like Justine a lot. And I think this time things might actually work out. Mae took everything I said the wrong way and I didn't say the right things, Emily thinks I'm a stalker, and some things just can't be accomplished. I can talk to her without getting too nervous and I feel like there's something more to it than I think she looks amazing. But I guess I'll see.

Then, my phone's off, so I haven't talked to Cassie in a while. Although I wish I could so I could patch things up. Cause I still feel bad about saying no to her. Rejection hurts. Period. And although it sucks to have it happen to you or someone else, it happens. But you just feel terrible to hurt a friend, and I wish I could've said yes. But, it's not what I wanted....

And apparently someone at my school likes me, but I can't quite level with her. And Ashley (You know, tall freshman that looks like a senior?) might like me too. But, I'm REALLY bad at reading people. As cool as Ashley is, I don't really feel like we're friends. Like we just hug and that's about it.

Then, we have finals. I just did my German and English finals. Dad seems to be more worried about it than I am. But there's almost no way I can fail any of my classes. Unless I totally screw up on the Algy 2 test. Which I doubt I will. I get math really well...

And I've started bringing my acoustic guitar to school. I know I'm good, but I like to play an overdrive guitar. Although, lately, it seems I can only play on a relatively clean setting. And it bugs me like HELL. But I've been writing excellent themes lately. Like a bug bite that just makes you healthier, I'm having a musical style breakthrough. It's cool. But the whole writing music isn't quite as great as playing guitar.

No worries, though. Either way, it's bringing more musical talent out of me.

It would seem like that's everything: just guitar and girls. And I'm psyched about the upcoming winter break. But, what I really want is more traffic and more excitement in my life. Partying with friends, drinking booze, eating more food, playing in a band, etc. I'm not fond of this whole Same old song and Dance scheme.

I suppose I should go for a walk. Usually, it feels great getting back from one. Hell, I might come up with a new song when I get back. But, alas. I still have that something's missing feeling. Like I complete something everyday that was completely worthless. Any doctors have the cure?