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At the moment I'm only a little depressed.. But other than that I've become numb.. Sure its likely not going to stay, but I'm not currently thinking about death.. I really miss talking to the one I love.. My only problem right now is, I don't want to do anything.. I feel like I'm frozen in time right now, not wanting to move forward, and I know I can't move backwards.. I worked on something this morning, and after a few hours of work I finally got it done.. I still haven't gotten the banner I've been working on done, though I don't have a quote for it.. I'm having a lot of troubles concentrating on homework.. I still feel useless, even though I've been told some time ago that I'm not.. That hole in my chest hasn't completely filled but, it at least feels like it's gotten smaller, even though I'm sure it will collapse again, right now it feels better than it had hours ago.. I feel bad about myself, though I don't know why.. I really feel bad about myself...