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I'm quitting. Don't get me wrong, I love you guys, it's just that I'm tired of Gaia.

All of you... you're all special to me even though I only know you online. You befriended me and gave me some of the feelings in your hearts to me... and made me be able to press on in life.

If it weren't for you'll, I might have finally summoned up to kill myself somehow...

My life is still rough because of my family but at least I don't have school. I'm worried about being stressed about studying and working so hard... and not being a kid anymore... but a big part of me wants to influence the world, get married, have children, move to Japan, and get on with my life.

A part of me just feels like running away from the bad things in my life though...

I'll try my best to stay strong... but... I'll need some real friends offline to help me really be who I want to be.

You see, I feel like a Nobody, from Kingdom Hearts. Only half of a person. I feel like Roxas or something... I just want to be whole again.

I've been in so much pain, and I'm trying so hard to still be myself... but it's hard...

Well, I'll see you guys. At the very least, I hope I see you'll in the after life, if there is one, and if we become ghosts, or meet in Heaven, whatever.

I'm not going to somewhere like Hell just because I don't believe in God. I won't. I'll follow my path and I'll prove it's the right one to follow. And maybe someday people will listen... John Lennon said "Imagine there's no religion" in that one song, Imagine.

Maybe there doesn't need to be a religion. It may be hard, but we don't need to know our origins or the end. We just need to live in the moment and help each other, striving for world peace and harmony. That is Salvation.

I don't understand why people would kill each other... We're all human... It's our own kind that we're harming. We should let personal problems affect us.

I hope all of you, my friends and whoever else may read this take my wisdom into account.

Farewell... and may good fortune smile upon you.

Sincerely, the future Hero, Shiro Ame of the White Rain.