Welcome to Gaia! :: View User's Journal | Gaia Journals

((Sorry for any spelling errors ahead of time, this computer doesn't have spell-check built in- im typing this at work. Bwhahaa))

In some respects, I suppose I've built up a resistance to the energy-sapping texts. If i text all day, it still wears me out so that I can't think straight and I am like super duper tired. But now, I want to text people more and I have been. I've been good about it.

Ah- it's really nice to text friends. I haven't been talking to my friends for a while and just started opening back up to them this week. I called Andrea and caught up with her for a while then texted Christy and found out she was still alive (no really, I was worried about that). And I've been in contact with Dev and Josh the most. I try to text Josh every other day but usually fail and pester him with a text >.> My brother says there's no such thing as texting too much when you like someone and they like you.... but I'm not so sure. It's not like I'm obsessive or stalking or demand attention but I do send a text just about everyday or if something interesting happens... I'm still not used to it but I am better.

I ask my brother for dating advice quite often. Not like "what should I do" kinda things but more like... "what does he mean?" or "did I ******** up" cause I'm insecure like that. I really am. He apologized for being distant to me and I wanted to apologize back that I was obsessive but, I know I'm not. I'm just, hard on myself. -Sigh.

I know I talk a lot about the relationship and I apologize. There are other things going on and I do talk about those too... I just worry about the relationship too. Sometimes mnore since it's the first time I've really been in a relationship. I don't count the high school one cause that was weird... let's just call it that. And so, for someone new to relationships, I take advice where I can get it. I ask multiple people, even went to the library and rented books to help me. I'm so silly but... it just means that I care. I still worry as to why someone would want to be in a relationship with me but I have confidance, which I never question, that once he gets to know me more, it won't feel that way anymore. I will be more comfortable and feel safer in telling myself that I like him.

>.> Er- I better go before I get drawn in again...