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I'm so tired right now
it feels like I'm dreaming
but I'm clearly awake.
Fuzzy thoughts
illusions that the picture isn't clear
thoughts that come in pieces
I'm awake but I'm not.
I'm dreaming, awake.

For some reason, I'm just really tired right now. I got super mad at myself after work. Work was easy enough but... I dunno I was cramping and the pms stuff... I think it all just got to me. One of those days.

It's one of those days where I'm tired of the stupid bleeding. I'm tired of explaining to myself that I'm tired of it and that I just need to be patient. I need to tough it out. I'm tired of thinking about how many panties that I have ******** tainted. I can't ever seem them the same. I want to burn them. Burn them all. I get so angry. I get so sad.

I watched Scooby Doo Mystery Incorporated to cheer up. Like I thought, I knew the twist before it happened. Knew it all along. I ate ice cream and it actually does feel better. I don't feel as angry at myself. The ordeal isn't over. I've got at least another month from what I gather from my online friend who has the same condition. Another joy filled month from the Moodworld.

P.S. Moodworld isn't very fun to visit.