I feel like I need to reply to myself of 2009, and 2010.
Gabriel, you're not the same anymore. You're not that scared teenager who was afraid to come out. You're no longer the same boy who was hospitalized a couple times. You made it through hell and back. You are now confident, you speak clearly. You're simply not afraid anymore. You've grown to be a promising individual.
I see my earlier posts from 2009, and 2010, and I think "Wow, I was like that once upon a time." and I can't help to be glad that I posted this on here. It almost feels like a time capsule that I randomly found again in 2013. It's unbelievable how much things have changed. I graduated High School, I have many friends, I am a leader not a follower. I know how to live.
In response from my post of 2010. He was never my real friend, though I did learn not to put others over more important people. He was a wolf dressed in a sheep's wool. I followed him aimlessly like a lost puppy, thinking that he was going to save me, when in reality I was the one who needed to save myself.
I can't help to feel like life is bliss. Even if I have my moments. Even if I feel alone sometimes, life is great. I can almost feel something good will happen this year.
A few years ago, I was so depressing to have around. So pessimistic. Now I am making my own music, and doing my own thing. I am a soloist named Lovoas RED.
Let me reintroduce myself:
I'm Gabriel.
I'm 19 years old, almost 20.
I love music.
I love the arts.
I love life.
No longer have I lingered on my past. I honestly don't think I can be the same as I used to be. Nonetheless, I feel like I still owe myself something more. A new change for the even greater. Whatever that change may be, I don't know. But eventually I'll know what it is.
...Until then, I want to feel grand.
 The Geb · Tue Jan 22, 2013 @ 06:11pm · 0 Comments |
