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I hate you. You see it. You have this feeling in your gut but you won't say it to me. JUST ******** SAY IT! Don't you know you that it could save me? WHY THE ******** WON'T YOU SAY ANYTHING! Heh. Heh. HAHAHAHAHAHA. I KNOW that you can see it. HOW COULD YOU NOT?! You're only around me every ******** day. I know I'm not that good at manipulating and putting on a ******** charade. You see it. JUST ******** SAY SOMETHING YOU b*****d!

I can't focus.

I'm bored.

I'm making decisions that will ruin things that I worked hard on.

I'm choosing to do things that I normally would not do.

I AM LETTING MYSELF GO FREE!

I don't think you know, but this... this whole world isn't real. Dreams are real. Sleep is the enemy. If I sleep, I'll disappear. They keep telling me things that haven't happened. They tell me to do these things. They tell me that things are a certain way, BUT THEY AREN'T. I'M NOT TRAPPED! You can't find me. I'll go into hiding. I'll become threefold again. Good luck trying to talk to me. She'll hide me away. She'll protect me. They'll never let me out again. They'll keep things going. PUNCH ANOTHER CARD AT THE ******** OFFICE. Heh. He should have said something.