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I hope you know anything I write about myself is going to be imbedded with bias, right? Well with that being said, I'll see what I can come up with. I'm weird, and I like it that way. I would like to live a life worth remembering and make one interesting bibliography or whatever that thing is called that someone writes about you after you're dead, or you write about yourself while you're living.

I try to be as open minded as possible, I like being spontaneous, also having a good sense of humor, I think I have a unique way of thinking. I'm still figuring out whether that's good or not. I'm very loyal to those things I'm involved in and with. Among a few of my problems would have to be self-esteem, social anxiety, also an intense fear of speaking infront of many people.

I'm interested or even as much as fascinated by understanding and learning about people and the world full of knowledge in general. So I'm interested in a very wide variety of subjects. World history, warfare, psychology, sciences, emotions, all things spanning abnormal or unknown, Paganism, breakdancing, philosophy & morals, the metaphysical, spirituality, astral projection, telekinesis - psychokinesis - pyrokinesis - cryokinesis, physics, logic, literacy & vocabulary, manners, Hagakure and the way of the samurai (Bushido), Buddhism, astrology & zodiacs, elements and elementals (I'm fire!), love & peace, fantasy & fiction, roleplaying & LARP'ing, photography & cinematography/making videos, martial arts, empathy, ki, chi, consciousness & awareness, equality, healing, helping, listening, observing, learning, video games, technology, the internet, Gaia - both as this site and gaia as in Earth.

I can be stubborn, when I know I'm right I'm usually right though. If not, then I learn from it. I'm pretty direct when it comes to the way I decide to approach things and matters, if I wanna know, I'll ask, I'm very blunt and very honest. Not been much of a liar my entire life, and when I had, I was bad at it, cause I'm not a liar by heart, I say what I think and I say what I mean. That's just my nature. My other nature is to avoid situations and awkwardly approach them, in cases effected by social anxiety and my other fears.

I see the world through the eyes of a child even as I grow up, the most mundane things can hold importance to me. I tend to find answers to questions through observing life and normal processes, the way anything interacts with anything. There's a lesson, a programming, or something to learn from absolutely anything, whether it be fruitcake, a cup of pop (soda), gum wrapper, bird crap or falling down stairs.

I tend to blame myself a bit too much, right off the bat. Then later think on how it involved so much more than just myself. That's about it for now, this is probably one of the best "about me"'s I've written so far. There's a lot more to me but if you're interested I'm sure you'll find out. Lol.