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Its so annoying....Damn how annoying it is to find out you are weaker than someone....Makes your blood boil to just hate them and destroy them, but when its someone close....Well thats when you know there is going to be things that make you hurt...Sadly my bro Rich bein stronger than i am....really makes me wonder if i can ever over come someone like him...And ancient soul, so said...Hmm....Damn, makes me wanna just fight so badly, while at the same time just sit alone and hurt like i am right now...Then the worst part not even knowing what i got myself into, the whole spirit world kind of stuff, im wondering if im that crazy to actually believe. Then thinking of all these people linked to me to be Indigo Children, like what am i in, what did i do? How did i end up? Its not like i hate being in this, its something ive lived for, something special to happen that people say can never happen. And i would do what i can with all my heart to bring right back to this world, you know restore it to the former glory it once was, no cars, no polution, just honor, love, peace, glory. Battles fought with real warriors, villages within the midst of places youd never expect. Travel for days to find new population, journey for years to find your destiny, meet people with the same faith....Yeah im stupid like that....but its what i dreamed for....Then now being in this Indigo Children thing makes me wonder what im really doing, if im right for what im in? Even if i am right for this, one of those people, it seems i ended up being the one with more or less of the weaker powers than the rest of the team. Then the whole team itself was hardly found, and the battle it self isnt even known. Then having a demon so said from one my gurls that was after her go after my boi Rich....like damn, ive known her for more than a year, then she just met Rich for an hour and it seemed the demon realized Rich had power. Hah shows how good i am right? Then whats the use? I mean why am i in this if im one of the weak ones? Faith they say? Have faith and id be strong, but how much faith does a guy need, i cant get that much faith. No matter how much i try i cant be stronger than Rich, its a fact. Its a 1 year to a 1 hour ratio here. Seems like i dont compair in this s**t for beans....Man its been a day already and i thought i solved this whole thing with the power struggle, but i cant. And i know that. My life is simply to be the best, to be the strongest. To show my family what the underdog can do. But now this, its just annnoying how shitty things end up.....Damn i wish i can find a way thats actually possiably to become stronger than him.....I dont hate you Rich, i love you man. Your one of my closes friends, its just i hate being weaker than you....

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