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ha ha thats so funny
So she thinks she'll be a better mom than me? Well if she would stay out of the way and actually let me be a mom to my child she'd see what a real mother looks like. Peeps, let me tell you something now. I admit that I'm not the best person in the world. I've done my share of dumb things and I've made mistakes. I'm human. The only thing that I know for a fact I did right was give birth to that beautiful little boy. Now, some things were said about me that weren't true. DCS got involved in my life when someone lied. People lie a lot. I don't know why, but they do. That's what happened, someone lied because they didn't like me and I lost my son. Now it seems that everyone has labeled me a terrible mother when they don't even know the whole story. Does anyone come and ask me? No. They ask a person who wasn't even there, who only heard it from someone else. How reliable is that? I mean what happened to me would be like if I called DCS on my ex and said he was abusing our son just because he wouldn't let me take our son outside. Would it be true? Of course not. But DCS would come and take Weylin from him just as they did to me. I'm not a perfect mother, but I try. Some parents I know throw their kids away so they can do drugs, or get pregnant several times and have abortions rather than get on birth control, or even beat their kids everyday just because they can. If I didn't love my boy, I wouldn't have had him. I wouldn't have spent day after day with him rather than run off with friends. I took care of him for 6 months all by myself. He was happy, healthy, and alive. Now I see him and it kills me. Some people I know are fortunate enough to go see their kids when they want but choose not to. Some can actually hold their babies and sing them to sleep or bandage their cuts or take them to the park. I can't do those things. I sit and see my son, who once knew me as mommy, hit people and stare at me like I'm a stranger. I cry everyday because I fear that they aren't providing for him. I have nightmares about what may happen to him while he is away from me. No one asks me anything. All their hear is one side of the story, a side that wasn't there. They never saw me care for Weylin. They never knew the things I gave up to keep him. They will never know how much he means to me. Where were these people who think I can't care for him? If I was so horrible, why didn't they do something about it? Why did it take so long for anyone to finally get around to caring about my son? Where was his daddy when he got his first tooth, or when he learned to crawl, or when he said his first word? Where was he when Weylin needed comforting from the shots or when I needed a break to shower but couldn't even do that because the baby would cry? I'm such a bad mom but I'm not the one who ran from my child. I'm not the one who picked some girlor guy over my own child. I tried. That's all I could do.
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