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Finals are coming up. Just Thanksgiving and then 3 more weeks. Which means my grades require to improve. But, I've pulled my History grade up to a D-, which means I won't fail! Although I've got a D in English because I just got raped by Huck Finn assignments... Damn. But I gots an A in PE! And a B in German! Algebra 2 and Media are C's. And I just did a project in Media. Worked out really well

But, things are not well....

School is good and although I'm dropping to the failing level in some classes, I should do okay. But, now my dad says I have to do well in school and go to college or I'm going to have to move to Chile. In South America. I've worked so hard to make friends and to find real friends that are more family than I've ever had.

And now, I'm being raped with work. I've had to do the leaves all week. It's Thursday. And dad says I'm going to have more chores. And now I'm being forced to either ride a bike or walk home from Bigfoot hangouts on Fridays.

And I'm still single.

My hair is still looking gay but it's acceptable. And against my last journal, I've decided, as long as I play guitar every day and have the mindset that Joe Perry, Slash, and Angus Young have had since the 1980's, then I might play guitar until I'm 60 and can't use my fingers! It's not about what you do and don't write, it's not about how much you play, it's for the love of the music.

Some people like my dad stopped playing guitar because they lost interest. He said he'd never play again because he's gotten so terrible...

We're a lot alike, and I want to play guitar forever. I hope I end up doing that. I don't wanna lose my love of music....

And it still angers me when I see Topher and Maci sucking face always talking about/to each other. Like they're trying to rub it in my face. And seeing him, it looks almost like Maci's consuming Topher's life almost like Beka was consuming mine. But who cares? Not like anybody's going to read this and give a s**t.

Sigh...

I don't care for a girlfriend much anymore

But still something's missing in my life

What do I need? A purpose?

That sound about right. Cause sometimes I just wanna hang out with friends forever, even if I've been losing some lately. Like Gabi. I NEVER talk to her anymore, like we just met and then it was like whatever. But I still talk to Ana, Richie, Jenn, and Pasha

Guess that's everything. Lardies and gestlemen, I bid you adieu. Tschuss