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I don't really know anything right now... I don't even know what I'm going to write... I guess I'll just not think about it and let the words come... Have you ever felt stupid for somthing that is plain hard to do and people who have never tried it are constantly rubbing your failures in your face? Yeah, thats where I'm at right now... I'm going to a really hard highschool right now... In fact, we're the only high school in California (I'm not sure about the rest of the U.S.) to actually break the "magic 800 barrier" in API scores. But for some reason people feel the need to rub the fact that I am currently a C- student in my face. I even have a person who never finished high school (although they claim to have had all, or close to all the required credits...btw... it was an easy high school too.) getting on my case for not being an A+ student. It's really |=|_|(KI//G annoying. I mean, I'm going to a really hard high school, and at the same time I'm taking college courses, but yet it doesn't seem to be enough for these people. I can't stand it, especially from my mom who acts as if I'm the stupidest in my family even though she is a raging alcoholic with no brain cells left, my 20 brother dropped out and is living with his wife and her family because he dosen't want a job, and my 12 brother can't boil water!!
What is up with these people! I mean, if I'm such a big inconvience on their lives I apologize and have been for the longest time. Its not my fault that I'm a mistake and shouldn't even be here bothing Gaia with my senseless posts. Its actually quite amazing, I think four people in the whole world don't think I'm a complete idiot, not counting those who don't really know me. God, I don't even know why my friends put up with me everyday if I'm so horrible. It must be so hard for my mom to live with someone who in reality is very quiet and never asks a thing from her. I'm gonna get offline now, theres no sense in pulling the rest of Gaia into my supidity. I don't even know why I bothered to write this....