*Siiigh* ... I'm not feelin' too good. Head and heart-wise I mean... You know. Feelin' like you've done a lot of wrong to everyone. Or everyone's done a lot of wrong to you. My case is both. *Sigh* I'd tell you about it but.... That is not the point of this journal!!! O:<
Well, that last comment was a little more like myself. The normal kick a** fish who knows she's an idiot.... Sorta. =D
It seems like I have more and more to do everyday. Like if I didn't brush my teeth the day before I feel I have to do it again, adding more to my list to do. It strikes me as odd that something so little seems to add so much. But really it seems to make sense at the same time. Ad of course there are the slightly bigger things that I feel I need to do. Clean my room more. Empty everything from my closet. Get rid of my junk. Finish that picture. And many more important things. I dunno. Seems like I have to much for me to finish in my current position. Which brings me to complain about something else showing how much more of a selfish person I am.
I want to be older. At first I thought that I wanted to leave this house. But I quickly realized that wasn't the problem. I'm fine with living here. I just can't stand the people. Or at least, two of them. I wish my brothers were cleaner, nicer, didn't need videogames to entertain themselves, and had less ******** SHITTY ADDITUDES!! And I figured out a way to (mostly) solve this problem, bringin us back to the beginning sentence. I want to be older. If I'm older, they're older. Thus they might leave the house. Or if they're still too pathetic to be self-sustaining then at least I can leave. And also I can go where I want without asking first. Be able to leave when I feel like it. And also earn my own money to use as I like.
Though I'll admit that I'll be sad leaving my parents. Plus I'll feel bad if the boys still can't cook any frickin' food and my mom has to babysit them. But hey, if they don't leave soon I'm pretty sure I can scrape up the money to buy that sword I saw. (:<
Now before I go on I must evaluate what I have written (Which I have already done) and comment upon it... I've never written anything like this before. Usually I just rant about stuff I have recently witnessed. But in this case I'm actually talking about my life. Shocking!
I can really transform from the beginning to the end of a journal entry. I was all depressed when I started this entry but now I feel quite perked up. Maybe I should write these more often...
Well, I think I'll conclude the entry here. But, before I do I want to state one more thing.
I'm giving away some of my gaia money. Depending on how I feel when I give it away will determine just how much I will give away. Also I don't know who I'm giving it away to. It might be a friend, a random person on a quest, a charity, or somebody whose shop I think is awesome. Oh, and I only have 5300 at the moment so it's not a lot anyway.
Off!
When will I wake up... Escape from this crazy dream
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Ramblings of a Fish
Just my ramblings, of random things obviously. They're disturbing, most likely boring, and will make you want to jump out of your seat and run away in terror! Muahaha! .....Nah, I'm kidding. I'll be rambling and that's it. So read it! XO
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