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Living in a fairy tale
Everytime I go to see my son it's like I'm walking into another world. Everything seems so perfect and right. I'm mommy, Lee is daddy, and of course our precious baby. We all laugh and smile and make small talk like nothing ever happened. But then it's time for mommy to leave. Then reality sets in. My heart breaks and I feel like something horribly wrong is happening. My son was taken from me and given to the boy who broke my heart and treated me like crap. We pretend because it's better for Weylin, but what is the truth? What does Lee really think behind the mask? I know what I think. A tiny voice seems to creep out from the dark, shattering the beautiful illusion. It reminds me of all the cruel things Lee said and did, of how we'll never be a family. It tells me to do and say things that I know would ruin everything. The dreamworld would be lost should I act on my urges. I release the pain inside by crying. It makes the reality seem more bearable. Over time, the pain sinks in, locked away with all my other sorrows. Then it is time to go back to HIS house. I must go back to the make believe where Lee never said he wished I was dead and I never said that I'd sooner die then let him see Weylin.
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