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Paperwork.... Lots of it.

Got into a state run program that's supposed to help me find work. Also have a interview tomorrow to see if I qualify for assistance for housing. I probably don't but I filled out the 10 page application anyway. Never hurts to try.

Have a list of places to check for volunteering. In addition to helping to pass the time, these would be things I could put on my resume. Two are animal welfare organizations, and the others are mostly health oriented.

I'm also still looking into going back to college, but that doesn't look too hopeful. community college fees are low, but I probably can't get financial aid, due to the fact that I still have an outstanding loan from the last time I attended college, 20 years ago. Filled out the forms anyway, lol, Never hurts to try, I say again.

Just finished reading the last of the Vampire Chronicles for the third time, such a great series. I heard Anne Rice recanted and is no longer writing anything about vampires. I hope that's not true. Next reading Neil Gaiman's Stardust, then will reread Grapes of Wrath, just curious to see how similar things were for the homeless in the depression era. I strongly suspect things haven't changed much.

Parking at night in hotel lots, so far haven't been caught at it. I know they would more than likely just tell me to leave, but it makes me nervous anyway.

I see a lot of homeless people, and many of them don't have cars. Many of them are elderly. It's amazing to me how little attention is given to the homeless problem. I've seen families living in a car, with young kids. I think that the homeless are invisible to most people. It's amazing how little is offered here locally, especially when you realize how rich this area is. The Coachella Valley is full of expensive country clubs, and a lot of these people own a second home to go to in summer, to escape the heat. You'd think something would be done, or there would be plans to do something, or at least there would be some media attention, but there doesn't seem to be.

My mood goes up and down. Sometimes at night I turn on the car radio for a while, and I get into a good mood. Rock and roll does that for me. But in my dark moments I wonder why they don't just round us up and trot us out in the desert and dig a hole and shove us in it, so they don't have to be bothered by us any more.

I try to be positive, but I'm tired all the time, stressed, and frequently disgusted with humanity in general (I'm seeing too much of it - I have a better opinion of humanity when I don't have to deal with it too much).

Again, thank you to those who have sent or posted supportive messages, I very much appreciate it, even though I'm usually too weary ( or too limited on time) to respond.

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