It's been cloudy and chilly here for the last three days. Saturday the wind was so bad I couldn't take my usual walk, and today it rained off and on. I did get to take my walk in one of the "off" times though.

My daughter took me to Panda Express a few days ago, that was a nice change! I'm getting very tired of peanut butter crackers, and pork n beans!

I'm feeling a little irate atm, I've been browsing in various forums, including Yahoo Answers, and a lot of posts have ticked me off. One person stated you should not give money to the homeless because they will spend it on drugs or booze. Another post says Newt Gingrich advocates shooting all the homeless, is this true??? Wow...

I'm sure there are quite a few homeless who are drug addicts or alcoholics, but I see a lot of people who definitely aren't. I see families with children, and elderly women. The myth that all homeless people are criminals or mentally ill is ridiculous.

I've tried to get a steaedy job for three years. But every job opening here gets at least 100 applications. Of course employers are going to find someone younger than me, or with more experience. But you'd think in three years, someone would give me a chance. I JUST WANT A JOB!!!! I don't like having to be on welfare assistance, or to ask for help from the over strained county resources. But I've been left with no other option.

In the homeless forums, I see a lot of people saying they steal to survive. This is wrong, There are honest ways to get food. btw, since I have food stamps still (since I haven't reported to my worker my homelessness) I hand out bags of food to the homeless if I see someone begging at the Walmart exit for instance.

I hope I won't be reduced to begging in the future. I happen to know the local cops are cracking down on that.

Other posts suggest lying to the cops if they ask why you're sleeping in your car. How stupid do you think the cops are??? they can tell when someone is living in their car. Telling them that you're just "waiting for a bus" or whatever is not going to get them on your good side.

I personally will not lie, or steal. There is no need for it, and dishonesty will not improve my situation.

A large portion of humanity seems to be people who are a total waste of resources, in my opinion!



Okay, enough ranting.

I'm doing okay, it;'s really not the nightmare I was afraid it would be. A camping mattress made the back seat much more comfortable, and so far no one has obbjected to me sleeping in the Walmart parking lot. I heard from the animal shelter today, and will be going in Feb. to attend an orientation meeting for volunteers. I haven't heard from the Rapid Rehousing program yet, but hoepfully tomorrow. I'm spending money faster than I would like, mostly because I'm doing so much driving, and my car gets poor mileage. I have to drive up to the freeway at night to sleep at the Walmart, and then down to the center of town to the library and park, and often out to Indio where the Workforce Development enter is. Using 2-3 gallons a day, at 3.60 a gallon...

I'm in good spirits though. In the evening I listen to the radio quite a bit, but I worry I will run down the battery too much. I have no idea how long it's safe to play the radio. Trying to research that now.

Finished Grapes of Wrath, and then read Bring Me the Head of Prince Charming ( a bit of light reading, lol) and then The Lovely Bones. Good book, but... elbow? how do you find an elbow? This is bugging me a lot, lol.

I'm now reading Anne Rice's Witch Chronicles. Very good, though not quite as good as the Vampire Chronicles.

I spend a lot of time thinking also. Ever since childhood I have been interested, well obsessed really, with philosophy and metaphysics. I was into these subjects before I even knew what they were called. It's my personal belief that almost everything has a reason, and has meaning, and I keep trying to figure out what I am supposed to learn from this experience. But maybe I'm wrong, and there's nothing to learn. Or maybe I'm just not seeing it, lol

Til next time...