I think there's something wrong with me. I've been thinking about the new school year all summer, and then I just suddenly lose confidence in all that I wanted to accomplish...I started putting myself down, thinking about that other people thought of me and my friends...
I lost confidence in everything:
I can't sing. I hate my voice. It was stupid to even try, no matter how fun it was. People are just critics and I've heard enough insults to stop forever.
I can't write. My expression is depressing and overly dramatic... My thoughts on life in writing are always sad and usually about stupid topics, no matter how real they are to me.
I can't talk. I've made it a goal to be less quiet this school year. I made a promise to some of my friends. I don't think I can keep it...
I can't draw. I'm always being judged on it. Even the slightest mistake destroys it completely. Whether it's getting eyes right, or just the whole character.
Most importantly: I can't smile. When I laugh, smile or even giggle a bit, it's only a temporary lie. I'm not really at all as happy as I should be. Too many things going on, too many things happened. Getting into fights, losing somebody I should've cared more about, Insulting friends, and talking back to my parents. I hate it. I hate everything that I've done... I wish I could start over, but regaining confidence is one of my weaknesses. I can't. cry sad
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Life's gifts and sorrows...
The things in life that seem to just pop into my head. My third personality at its best. Everything written is all opinion from my perspective, as someone with a childish spirit and hidden thoughts.
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