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Hatred's wrath...
Hatred... I despise it among anything. To despise hatred is something I wish to do. I lose confidence in everything I do, because I'm angry. I hold this hatred that I can't explain nor get rid of. I occassionally get lost in jealousy or pure rage, pretending that I don't care. It's hard, but I wish that somehow I can get rid of the feeling that's haunting me. I want to talk with somebody, but at the same time, I don't. I'm being held back from what I want to do, and need to do. Everyday is constant annoyance, and pain from what I wish I could be like. Whenever I get into an argument, I just lose it and occassionally forget that I even cared. I want to stop it. I'm more confused then I'll ever be. There's just too much to deal with. I don't even know my real personality. I'll get over it. I feel better when I talk to myself like this... confused cry
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