-Freya from Chobits
The one time I haven't used any quote by Amy Lee.
I want nothing more than to find the person just for me. The person that I share the most common interests with. The person that will like me for me because I am me. This isn't just some sort of Chobits cosplay. It's real life. It's not easy to be me. Nobody is like me because nobody likes me. My friends have no loyalty. I'm afraid of death. I can't live my dream. Everybody laughs at me, saying that it will never happen whenever I say what I want for the future. The world is chaotic. And my luck takes what it gives. I have good luck one day, and then it all crumbles in the next four days. Things aren't easy, so it's hard. I don't know who my real friends are. I know somebody who has already found the person just for her. They are far away, and are sisters but only on the internet. They have things in common. I want that, but does a person like that really exist in the world? I doubt it. But no matter what, I'll keep going until I find that person that I've wanted to see forever.
Maybe everybody would be better off if I didn't ever discover what life really was. Maybe I should have just spent the rest of my life trying to be like everybody else, and trying so hard to fit in. I used to be like that... I used to not care, and my main goal was to be one of those people that everybody likes, but I was going the wrong way. I was trying to be cool, but it will never happen no matter what, because I am me. Even if I tried to fit in, it wouldn't happen because other peoples' expectations are too high. They want perfection, though there is not such a thing. What good is it? Why even bother...? ...The world will never make sense. If I forgot about everything that I hate, will I be happy again? Will have that same wonderful feeling in my stomach that I have whenever I look at old pictures and see how happy I used to be. I guess, now all I want is to find that person that can make me feel that way.
